Very sober

Sobriety is so much a part of me I hardly even notice it anymore. 

Tireless

So little time to be tired when your sober. 

Shortcomings

I've remained sober despite being majorly flawed. 

Hidden

I have actually been able to remain in hiding most of my life. I don't know if that's a good or bad thing. 

Sobriety

Sobriety is sometimes controlled chaos. 

Art form

Life in itself is an art form. Drunkenness is art unfinished and in disarray. 

How it came to be

Drunkenness, realization, honesty and accountability. 

Free fall

Very few of us can sober up while in a free fall. Rock bottom is sometimes the place to be. 

Alcohol...

Alcohol made me do things I didn't want to do:(

Replacement

For me daily prayer and being of service to others has replaced my desire to drink. 

I'm no doctor

I do not know if alcoholism is a disease or a disorder of the brain. 

What I do know is that alcoholism is disruptive. I lost over 22 years of my life to it:)

Silence

Just because I've had little to post the past few days doesn't mean I'm not still sober. 

Absolutely nothing

17 1/2 years sober means absolutely nothing if I drink again. 

Always

I'll always be a common fall down drunk. And that is exactly why I pray that I never take another drink. 

No quick fix

I always thought alcohol would fix me. As it turned out it just damaged me even more. 

Trade off

I get my sobriety by attempting to offer it to you. 

A thought

I often shake and cringe when I think about what life would be like if I were still drinking:(

There is a good chance I'd be dead (or in jail). 

Create

Sobriety allows me plenty of time to create whatever I choose. 

What do I do?

I am a married, 52 year old father of two home schooled children. I also blog, write fiction and poetry and I operate and run a photography business. And of course I have not missed a day at the gym in over 1200 days. 

Bi polar

With the days of alcohol long gone I have been found to have bi polar. I guess I was reaching for the bottle as a way to combat my disorder. 

Medication has been prescribed and so far things and feelings are quite well.