I'm no doctor

I do not know if alcoholism is a disease or a disorder of the brain. 

What I do know is that alcoholism is disruptive. I lost over 22 years of my life to it:)

Silence

Just because I've had little to post the past few days doesn't mean I'm not still sober. 

Absolutely nothing

17 1/2 years sober means absolutely nothing if I drink again. 

Always

I'll always be a common fall down drunk. And that is exactly why I pray that I never take another drink. 

No quick fix

I always thought alcohol would fix me. As it turned out it just damaged me even more. 

Trade off

I get my sobriety by attempting to offer it to you. 

A thought

I often shake and cringe when I think about what life would be like if I were still drinking:(

There is a good chance I'd be dead (or in jail). 

Create

Sobriety allows me plenty of time to create whatever I choose. 

What do I do?

I am a married, 52 year old father of two home schooled children. I also blog, write fiction and poetry and I operate and run a photography business. And of course I have not missed a day at the gym in over 1200 days. 

Bi polar

With the days of alcohol long gone I have been found to have bi polar. I guess I was reaching for the bottle as a way to combat my disorder. 

Medication has been prescribed and so far things and feelings are quite well. 

18 years

There was a time I could not stay sober for eighteen days. Soon I'll have eighteen years. 

I have almost forgot how bad it was. 

Miserable

For me, to drink is to get drunk, and to get drunk is to eventually die miserable and without love. 

Always

I am a drunk who no longer drinks. 

One day at a time

One drink would turn tomorrow back into a lot of miserable yesterday's  That is why I live for today only. 

Either or

I despised the very thing I loved. That will always be the core of my illness

Substitute

I would often substitute sleep and food for alcohol. Anything for a buzz. 

Never

Never again to drink, never again to know misery. 

Who am I?

I had my first drink when I was 13. I had my last drink at the age of 34. In between I lied, cheated, cried, screamed, kicked and hurt everyone in my path. 

Drunkenness is ugly. 

The bottom

I've been to the bottom of every bottle. That is how I finally hit rock bottom. 

Alcoholism is like...

Trying to make believe everything is alright on my worst day.

Sanity

If I were anymore sober I'd be sane.