Killer magic

In the end I was so sick and tired of myself that even alcohol could no longer work it's magic.

Many drinks

I never told myself I was going to drink just one.  I would try and stop after six, then eight, then twelve.  I then tried just drinking beer.  At one point I attempted to limit the number of hours I was going to drink.  Two, three or maybe four.  None of these strategies ever got me any where.

A few drinks became dozens.  Only beer turned into shots and a couple of hours often became several days.

Sound familiar?  I'm Jay Kolo and I'm an alcoholic.  Always was, always will be.

A friend in need

Alcohol came around at a time in my life when I desperately need a friend.  I drank and drank and let alcohol do the rest.

Runaway train

That is what life is like for me after the first drink.

Which way do I go?

Everything in life is better sober!  For 20 years I was doing it the hard way.  The hard way is compliments of alcohol.

Madness

Life went from bad to worse and then I reached for the bottle.  The pain of mornings remorse will forever scar my soul. 

Taking a dive

Every time I got drunk it was like taking a dive.  I took a perfectly good situation and pissed all over it.